Hi blog...
With me writing over here is something which has become a private affair, since nobody is going to read this blog anyway...
So I can give vent to my feeling here without bothering a single soul out there busy in their won crap.
So a lot happened since i last updated here...I lost my sister, yeah real sister....nobody imagines such situations but it happened.....and my mom was diagnosed with stage III breast cancer, even Docs are skeptical about it being metastasis, because if its found so...It wont be cured for sure...I mean then they would try to buy few years if they can.....and then her suffering would be over..
I can be termed as a cold blooded person as I am writing this all in such a light vein, but I really don't have any choice, i have got to do this, face this, and keep my calm. In fact now I have come to understand of all the minor tragedies that occured with me were preparing me for this....you can't be sure though about the strange working of destiny.
So destiny , back to square nine, back to where you started,Mr Abhinav not bad....not bad..I can see my destiny laughing me, calling me names, abusing in open public and I am not even willing to strike back.I am so getting used to humiliation, I generally find an alternative way to avoid such type of skirmishes with life and i have succeeded in some measure, but its so temporary, It will strike back me when I am in worst possible mode to handle it, It always does.
Anyways the news is that i moved to delhi to prepare for Engineering services. It may sound fancy but deep inside I am just killing time....not sure of what to do with my life, All my wits and talents lying unused, all my powers in dormant state, and me lying under sky for the dawn to come and take my restless state away, for then i'd be in peace with myself and my soul..
With me writing over here is something which has become a private affair, since nobody is going to read this blog anyway...
So I can give vent to my feeling here without bothering a single soul out there busy in their won crap.
So a lot happened since i last updated here...I lost my sister, yeah real sister....nobody imagines such situations but it happened.....and my mom was diagnosed with stage III breast cancer, even Docs are skeptical about it being metastasis, because if its found so...It wont be cured for sure...I mean then they would try to buy few years if they can.....and then her suffering would be over..
I can be termed as a cold blooded person as I am writing this all in such a light vein, but I really don't have any choice, i have got to do this, face this, and keep my calm. In fact now I have come to understand of all the minor tragedies that occured with me were preparing me for this....you can't be sure though about the strange working of destiny.
So destiny , back to square nine, back to where you started,Mr Abhinav not bad....not bad..I can see my destiny laughing me, calling me names, abusing in open public and I am not even willing to strike back.I am so getting used to humiliation, I generally find an alternative way to avoid such type of skirmishes with life and i have succeeded in some measure, but its so temporary, It will strike back me when I am in worst possible mode to handle it, It always does.
Anyways the news is that i moved to delhi to prepare for Engineering services. It may sound fancy but deep inside I am just killing time....not sure of what to do with my life, All my wits and talents lying unused, all my powers in dormant state, and me lying under sky for the dawn to come and take my restless state away, for then i'd be in peace with myself and my soul..
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